This work holds great importance for me, given that it was the first piece I ever wrote for myself to perform and is one of the most personal and emotionally charged projects I have ever tackled. Autobiographical to a great extent, creating this work involved uncovering deeply rooted trauma and insecurities of the past, aiming to examine themes of masculinity, self-discovery, isolation, anxiety and acceptance. A look back into the past as a catalyst for closure, with the voice at its musical, conceptual and emotional core.

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The vocal performance in the piece is abstract and wordless, put into context through the inclusion of text, 5 excerpts of a poem I wrote which are to be projected behind the vocalist at specific points in the performance.

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The electronic part of the piece also includes references to preexisting works which hold great personal relevance. After the opening explorative section, a series of vocoders manipulate the frozen voice of the singer into Tomás Luis de Victoria's motet Quam pulchri sunt, one of my most beloved choral works and a loving reminder my choral upbringing as a young teenager. The piece also includes several distorted samples from Jorge Drexler's 'Al otro lado del río', a song with complex personal undertones which I struggled to face and tackle for a long time. The resolution of the piece, which presents a longer sample of the song, ends with an overlap of myself singing it, representing healing and closure from the emotional baggage of the past.​​​

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Duration: c. 10-15'